Rest in peace Grandma'... :'(

I woke up to a very disturbing phone call informing me that my Grandmother has passed today. The hurtful thing about this whole thing - besides the fact that she is gone forever - is the fact that we had lost contact after Dad got locked up again about 2 and a half years back. I had just recently sent Father a letter(this past valentine's day; first letter sent since he's been locked up - due to the fact I just found his mailing information on OTIS) stating that I felt lost and empty with out that side of my family...and now this news comes to me about a week later. I believe in an awesome God. He is not a God of confusion, and I know for damn sure that everything happens for a reason. My steps are ordered. It was meant for me to contact my father when I did. Even though I didn't know that Grandma' would pass on, the reason behind me sending the letter stands firm. Dad needed to know...he needed to be aware of the fact that I still existed and the fact that I still acknowledge him as my father. He needed to know that he had some one out here that loves him; doesn't think he's a monster - especially after Grandma's death today.

I love you Grandma' Jean...
sorry that I didn't try harder to find you - contact Dad earlier. At least then I would have been able to tell you that I love you, and miss you. I miss you and Grandpa'. The only one left from that side of my childhood; the happy care free side of my past, is Dad. I won't lose him again.